When I first started off on my journey as a birth photographer, many moons ago, my prayer went something like this
‘God, please use me and my images as an instrument proclaiming the power, beauty, self sacrifice, joy and wonder of motherhood. Bless me with beautiful clients, some of whom will share this vision for my work so that we can touch the human race and show the heart of mothers in all the glory that you created us’.
I have certainly seen the fruits of that prayer over the years. My images touching an incredible number of people world wide and being used as a vehicle to change how birth is viewed in our culture.
This morning, the first day of 2017, as I sat in worship of our King I gave Him a gentle reminder of that prayer. You see the past 2.5 yrs I’ve been consumed with practicing what I preach and why I LOVE capturing mothers. The self sacrifice, joy and fulfilment of giving myself fully to our fourth breastfeeding/co-sleeping little lady has taken priority over my photography. I’ve been very conscious of the fact that my days of having little people to provide for in that precious way, were drawing to a close, I knew that I wanted to make the absolute most of every day and be there for her.
My enquiries slowed to a snails pace. I no longer felt torn. I’ve been so blessed to keep my hand in birth photography but not let the joy I find in my ‘work’ morph into stress and take over my desire to be with my last baby and my family.
This brings me to today, the start of 2017. Little Faith has decided she no longer needs me in that way. She declared that my breastfeeding days have passed as she gently weaned herself over the past few months. She happily sleeps all night in a big bed (in a room she shares with her two big sisters, where she was born). She has filled me to the brim, the joy this little poppit embodies is infectious. To think I was worried when I fell pregnant with this unexpected baby and didn’t know how it would all work out. She has certainly lived up to her name and has taught me so much about having ‘Faith’ even in my business.
As I kick 2017 off I’m grateful. I’m so very grateful for my husband whom has a shared desire to live simply and not go after material wealth, I’m grateful for time to raise my children, to be there for them and witness their achievements and be proud as punch of them. I’m grateful for the births I was privileged to photograph since Faith was born and the lovely families that I was blessed to get to know in the process. These families filled my birth photography cup, each one of you will always hold a dear place in my heart.
I’m looking forward to a change of pace for 2017, a year that I can once again take on more birthing families and spend more time developing my business. I can’t wait to share more life changing and life affirming moments with you all, shining a light on mothers and our amazing capabilities.
I urge any of you in the birth industry with little ones to let go. Let go of the reigns of your business. Stop comparing yourself to others on social media whom appear to be kicking more goals than you are. Women will always be having babies, there is nothing surer than that. But our personal days of having small children are limited, the rewards we will reap by sewing into our children and into our families will surpass all. The long long days of having a breastfeeding, co-sleeping, energy stealing babe and young family will soon pass and then you will have time to indulge in your passion for birth once again.
Happy New Year
Image FireFly Images
Thank you to my dear friend Kylie from FireFly Images for capturing this beautiful image, making sure that I appear in images with my four munchkins.